Love laboratory

I have had my share of heartaches before my one true love Nix came. And those heartaches had been totally painful. Corny as it may sound, I felt then it was the end of the world. You know how it feels.

First, the pain of parting with your 'first love.' Although I'm certain now that what I felt for him was mere admiration, I have to acknowledge that it felt different then. He was my first boyfriend (I was in 2nd year highschool haha), the first ever to give me a long, sweet love letter. He was the first to give me a ring, the first to utter promises of forever. (Yes, we were that serious! Crazy puppy love). After over a year of fickleness (it simply didn't work), I broke up with him. And haven't heard from him since. (Thanks to friendster though I know he's still alive hehe)

Then my childhood sweetheart suddenly showed up when I was in 2nd year college. He admitted liking me since we were in Grade Six. He was really down to earth although uber rich. Back then, my friends teased me that my future with him was already secure. After all, he lives in the posh Wack-wack subdivision and drives a Black Safari. But I wasn't really into him. I simply wasn't into him. There was no magic, not an inch of head-over-heels type of love. I merely saw him as a saving grace for a relationship with he-who-must-not-be-named (not Voldemort! hehe) that never flourished. The relationship lasted for over a month. Yes, just over a month. haha. I saw him unexpectedly at a mall recently. It's amazing how you can just laugh at your mistakes. hehe.

I think there was nothing wrong with them. They simply weren't for me. And I consider them mistakes because they were not the right ones. I'm very certain of that. Although I still have to be thankful because I've been somehow shaped by these people.

Keeping a relationship work is an experiment. And you must find the perfect partner, else you end up blowing the whole laboratory. It is not just about chemistry and looking good together. A relationship is a theory in practice, where senses must work, where conclusions must be grounded on facts. Tried and tested formulas may not always work and so patience is the key.

And although experts find it hard to explain how people fall in love, we don't really need a genius to tell us what or who our true love is. :) As Jose Mari Chan's latest song says, "only you will know."

I now know. :) I've never been this certain. I've never been this sure. :) Woohoo! I Love You Nicolo! :)

(Nakakasuka na ba pagkamushy ko? hehe. Sorry, ganiyan talaga ang buhay. :p )